185th

Hmm just returned from 24hrs clinic.
Lucky mum drop of oxygen in heart dint drop for too long.
Ok definitely at that moment mum was gasping for air I was so worried I'm like gonna lost her for the next second.
Alot of things were actually rushing through my mind.
Probably if she wasnt angry, all these things wouldn't really happen.
I really tried to control my tears just now.
without blurking being there fr me I think i could really broke down cos at least anything happens I could call him first..
Really hope everything would turn out well for her.
At the moment she's gasping fr air, she was still complaining why her life was like that. Why sis couldn't fend for herself.
If sis like really stop smoking. She would have a better life right now & wouldn't be in debts right now. Cos it's like 20 bucks per day for cigarettes. Is it even worth?
& I was thinking If I'm willing to start working.. probably I would have lessen the family's burden.
I should start working now. Probably every weekends. Depends. Need to see how is it..
I've decided to look for a job right now! Alright.. but how..
hais. stressing me up
anw Should sleep now though.
haha getting late soon & it's a promise! :D
Nights!
CIAO

*All i could say is thanks! You may think it isn't really impt but it is! HAHA as long anyone is under some prob that they dont know what to do. with a lil support, they'll be so grateful. THANKS*

Omg I sound super sensitive. LOL :/