Burned-out.

“Do not allow yourself to be blinded by fear and anger. Everything is only as it is.”
― Yuki Urushibara

16th April 2012 - 18th April 2012
Had another splendid getaway from Singapore to Bintan with family and love.
Really had a great trip with no worries, with no anger, no fears, no tears and no unhappiness;
just simply had a really relaxing trip with laughter, joy and peace.
I love Bintan, I love the company, I love how carefree I was/were at that time, that moment.

18th April 2012 - 25th April 2012

Things started to turn sour when we're back in Singapore...
It always feel like us against the world when we're back.
For every single thing we've done, nothing seems to be reciprocated.
It's disappointing for how bad things had turned, how sour relationships had become.
I just hope all these would reset and go back to where it was again.
It's so tiring trying to hold in all emotions. I'm overflowing with anger, hate and sadness.
It's depressing to know how bad things had turned and I just don't wish to face it anymore.
After realizing how inhumane humans could be, I just feel like running away from reality.
(Welcome to life, Arlene, Welcome)

I'm just a girl, a young growing adult.
Sometimes, I wonder.. if right now, at this moment, I couldn't handle the stress given.
What would stress do to me when I'm older?...

I'm not sure, I don't wish to think and I don't want to know for now...
I just hope/wish/pray I could enjoy every moment I have now; every second, every minute of my life without any disturbance.
I'm suffering fatigue from growing up...
I'm burned-out.