Burned-out.

“Do not allow yourself to be blinded by fear and anger. Everything is only as it is.”
― Yuki Urushibara

16th April 2012 - 18th April 2012
Had another splendid getaway from Singapore to Bintan with family and love.
Really had a great trip with no worries, with no anger, no fears, no tears and no unhappiness;
just simply had a really relaxing trip with laughter, joy and peace.
I love Bintan, I love the company, I love how carefree I was/were at that time, that moment.

18th April 2012 - 25th April 2012

Things started to turn sour when we're back in Singapore...
It always feel like us against the world when we're back.
For every single thing we've done, nothing seems to be reciprocated.
It's disappointing for how bad things had turned, how sour relationships had become.
I just hope all these would reset and go back to where it was again.
It's so tiring trying to hold in all emotions. I'm overflowing with anger, hate and sadness.
It's depressing to know how bad things had turned and I just don't wish to face it anymore.
After realizing how inhumane humans could be, I just feel like running away from reality.
(Welcome to life, Arlene, Welcome)

I'm just a girl, a young growing adult.
Sometimes, I wonder.. if right now, at this moment, I couldn't handle the stress given.
What would stress do to me when I'm older?...

I'm not sure, I don't wish to think and I don't want to know for now...
I just hope/wish/pray I could enjoy every moment I have now; every second, every minute of my life without any disturbance.
I'm suffering fatigue from growing up...
I'm burned-out.

May 15 2012

 

Status: Graduate

It's scary how freakishly fast 3 years of Polytechnic life have passed.
O' levels seemed to be a yesterday thing and today (Thank god) I'm a Diploma holder.
I'm happy with my grades and at least I do qualify for a local university in which relieves a lot of my burden.
True enough, RP brought many memories and indeed many valuable lessons were taught to me.
It has shaped me to become a better woman, a woman with a sense reponsibilty and a certain level of maturity.
I'm grateful enough to my fellow facilitators and friends that have joined me along my 3 years journey.

May 15 2012 would be my graduation ceremony.
I'm estactic, excited and afraid.
Reasons being:

1. I can't wait to wear that black gown of mine
2. I can't wait to collect my Diploma cert
3. I'm afraid I'll breakdown to tears on that day

BUT.. I STILL CAN'T WAIT FOR GRADUATION CEREMONY TO ARRIVE! ♥
Thank god for making these possible.


Shall update soon.
Bye! ♥

Splendid short getaway ♥

*Taken on Wan Sendari Ferry towards Bintan.

Short 2 days trip to Bintan with B, Sis & Brother-in-law ♥
Amazing, relaxing and splendid days spent in Bintan.
We went for massages, had great food along with a nice swim in the sea before returning back to dreadful Singapore.
Despite having such a wonderful holiday there, it isn't really wonderful back in Singapore.
We had a 'welcome' news that really made our heart wrench at the slightest thought of it.
Well, what's over is over. No point pondering and hating on it.

Oh and another thing is.. I can't wait for the next Bintan trip! 
We are already in the process of saving and planning the next trip so.. yay! ♥

Shall update this space again. Bye! ▼

Stay young, wild and free ♠

Stay beautiful, stay wild.

Caught sight of a beautiful double rainbow some weeks earlier! ♥

School's coming to an end and I believe it will be a beautiful ending to another chapter of our lives.
I've met really great friends, friends that are willing to make you smile, friends that embarrass you every single day etc.
Everyday of my poly life is filled with colours and never once there's a day that I'm down.
I'm always smiling with you guys (Friends and Facilitators) and thank you for making my school life so great and awesome.
I love you all! ♥

 

2 years & 7 months ♥

 

Our anniversary is a time to look back at the good times and a time to look ahead to live our dreams together. ♥
Happy Monthsary love.

2 years & 6 months ♥

He tells me I'm beautiful without make up,
He comes to my house unexpectedly to surprise me,
He is the only person I feel completely safe besides my parents,
He could get anyone he wants but he chose me ♥

Yet again another month has passed with amazing moments, with tears and joy.
Happy Monthsary love.
I love you. ♥

It's the season of joy!

 

Approaching the month of December with caution.
It has been terrible for the past few 11 months and I cross my fingers that this 12th month would be great.
Christmas season is approaching, so is Hx's & B's birthday.
Oh god, need to seriously save up money for these 3 major events!
Not only that, I really do hope this December I can travel out of Singapore. (Like seriously travel..)
I need a getaway from this tropical island.

-I'm in need of a stress reliever.

For November....

School

Class has been awesome and interesting.
My classmates are really jokers and they made class so much more enjoyable.
Once, I was in a really bad emotional state and the moment I stepped into class, I felt so much better.
Thanks class, for making life so much easier for me ♥

Social Circle

For the month of November we...

• Celebrated YS 21st birthday at his place and went to USS the next day. (Awesome?)
• Went Grand Hollywood with the clique and had some drinks!
• Grand Hollywood with Thai Dog, Winnie, Khai, Jia Hao, Natasha & B!
• MJ session + JB with Thai Dog and B!

 

November was filled with joy and tears.
I hope December would be better.
So..let's embrace December with more laughter and love! ♥

Bye♥♥