Live it up.

 

Holla!

It's been months since I've updated this space.
I apologise for that.
It's just that internship has started and I do not really have time for myself.
The lack of sleep has been eating me inside out and waking up to a lifeless creature struggling to just end the day.
My life now equals to a whole vicious cycle of mundane & monotonous lifestyle every single day.

I rant alot & I really mean ALOT on twitter about my lifestyle now.
But I promise you, now it's getting a whole lot better.

These months were terrible and I mean real terrible.
It's like I'm trap inside a huge tunnel, countless of screams and cries for help just doesn't seem to save me.
Just these 6 months, I need a huge amount of emotional support but it seems like I still couldn't seem to get it.
Every freaking emotions these past few weeks have been twirling in my tiny peasy brain and I swear it seriously kills.
With the sleepless nights and freaking problems, I'm literally drained out of my energy and strength to even focus on my priorities.
Just as when suddenly when I have our mini couple fights. I swear this kills me even more.
Imagine you're simply trying to stay afloat in the middle of the deep sea to survive and god just decides to have a tsunami.
Alright my metaphor is bad, but I suppose you guys get it.
I just needed tons of tolerance and a listening ear. That's all.
I'm really drained dry of my jovial, happy go lucky attitude and I just no longer face things like how it was supposed or meant to be.
Probably, just probably, everything would be fine after my internship. I'm crossing my fingers across my heart.

I'm just extremely emotionally and physically shagged.

Alright, I shall update soon again. I'll see how.
I'll try to make it a point for every off days I have :D
Goodnight! ♥ oh & thanks for reading. Yes you there. Thanks. I really needed it.

I wanna do the robot-rock on the dancefloor.

 

CNY is here. Hoho awesome.

1st day.
Head over to GrandMa's place @ Hougang!
Had lunch over there and we cousins lepak-ed tgt again. Hohoho.
Played MonopolyDeal, Poker & Mahjong. ♥
Darnell & I went over to Macs to try the fortune fillet. Disgusting. Never wanna have it again.
We dared Ivan to pay all 5cents to Macs for Ice-cream and video-ed it down. Hohoho. Awesome.
(Video in FB)
Drank at night and got damn high. Went over to Club NaNa & drank again.
(Whatever happens there, stays there ♥ Haha right Jie?)
1st day of New Year and we partied hard. CoolorgasmicCNY (Y)

2nd Day.
Headed over to God-GrandMa's place @ AMK.
Buffet lunch there and lao yu sheng. (Y)
After that, watched "All's Well Ends Well 2011" @ Amk Hub.
Nice show. Damn awesome! Handsome Donnie Yen. Hohohoho lovelove♥
Then headed to SteamBoat @ B's place. Niceeeeeee (Y)

3rd Day.
Headed over to Yi-Karen's place @ Yishun
'Buffet' Lunch & Dinner there too (Y)
Lepak-ed with cousiexzx and B again. ♥
Played Mahjong once again! Awesomeeee.
After which, headed over to B's daddy place to bai nian. (Y)
He gave me many gifts. Hehe Thanks uncle!

4th Day.
Headed to Bro's place @ Yishun
SteamBoat once again. ♥
Watched movie and headed back home.

 

CNY was fun. But school on Monday sucks big time.
It's unfair. I haven't enjoyed enough yet. Wanna party again :O
UT3 & IIP is coming so soon. God-damn sian.


Shall update soon ♥

At times, I just wanna run & hide away from the harsh reality.

 

These few days were tormenting. Feeling as sickly as ever. My flu, cough & fever have not fully recovered yet.
Doctor spammed anti-biotics and I'm still not alright yet. This sucks.
I went over to Batam for school trip last Saturday & Sunday. I swear, damn fun & exciting. hohoho
Shared room with Celest, Su Mei & Yu Bing. Big MACC in the room and we had some small girls party (Y)
Swam at night and had the accompany of awesome drinks :D
Spent all my $$ on food and bought some cute stuffs back ♥
Well, returning to school was a chore. Couldn't wake up and I swear the temptation to NOT go to school was there.
BUT I'm proud that, I did managed to perservere. hohohohohoho (Good Job Arlene!)
This weekends I'm going to shop for some CNY clothings. Really hope could find some good buys :(
Pray hard that all items I want are still there and my size is available. (Bohpi)

Shall update soon. ♥

I gasp for air, gasp for love, gasp for kindness.

 

These few days hasn't been great. Issues just keeps coming up.
Issues doesn't just end. Keeps on going on & on. Serious emotionally tormenting problems.
I'm gasping for air each time I breathe. It's like diving in the ocean without any oxygen tank.
This feeling is terrorising.
It feels like I could die anytime, but I know, I'm not going to.
I cannot just ignore & move on. I cannot just live life as it is. It's too complicated.
Condemnation. Please don't. It hurts.

Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain;

 

;And even shared the tears

These four days were hectic.. Real hectic.
After B's birthday, stayed over at his place ♥
After the celebration, had supper with MJC, Ye, Alvinn, Pei Pei, Hx, Ys & YL at Ala-meen
& I had my awesome cheese pratas. (Slurps)
Superb guilty pleasure. Heehee
Slept over and I spent B birthday at Amichi Authentic Italian Restaurant and I bet we've had our time of our life there.
Wine, superb food, black truffles, delicious seafood & salads. A birthday gift worth remembering right B? ♥
Hope you loved the dinner, celebration and gift I've prepare ♥

After dinner, B went on to NaNa with the guys & I headed on to meet Lian & Co.
1. Headed to JP to find Lian & Kang Yang, walked around & meanwhile, waited for Fu Guan, Jeremy & Eugene to arrive.
2. Headed to town together to fetch another person.
3. Headed to Chinatown for supper & yet din't really had the mood to eat. Drank instead.
4. Fu Guan, Lian, Kang Yang & Jeremy sent me home.

Amazing Saturday? I know :D

Sunday, I went over to God-Grandma's place to visit her.
Chatted awhile & went for some lil shopping at AMK hub after that.
Bought my make-up stuffs @ O2 Skin and spotted some dresses for CNY. BUT STILL..
It was too late & the shop have to close :( Couldn't buy it. So yeah. Shall wait till next week to go down again.
I din't went for school on Monday though. I went to Raffles Medical Centre for my checkup.
After which, I head on to Raffles Hospital for my X-Ray. (Y)
Dinner with B & headed back home for some revision.

Yesterday was terror day. Had two UTs.
One of it was F&B & another was Macro. Tough UTs. But managed to pull through (Y)
Bohpi at least a pass &... I'm officially free from UT2. Left with UT3 to worry about. :/
Anyway, school semester gonna end so soon in just less than 3 weeks. After that, my internship would start soon.
Gosh. Everything seem so fast. I don't even have time for a breather. I need to rest man.
This weekend, I'm heading to Batam for some excursion. God bless me that everything would go fine. ♥

Shall update this site real soon. Ciaoxz ♥

 

Happy Birthday my boy.

Hope you love the mini surprise the guys & I have given you.
Hope you love the small gift I've gotten for you :)

Once again, it's the 15th of Jan. But.. it's special this year though.
You're in the first step of adulthood this year!
Please be more matured can! Don't always play WOW can?! Hehehe
Apart from that, I'm really happy we're still staying strong together & still happily celebrating our birthdays together!
Thank you for all the wonderful memories you've shared & given me.
You've always been there for me & you've guided me through.
Thank you bb.
I love you so much!

 

Happy Birthday boy ♥ Happy Birthday.

 

Ps. Shall we celebrate our 80th Birthday together? :)

Let's run away together baby.

 

Life's pretty crazy as it seems. Pretty messed up too.
Busy these few days with school and stuffs. Really having a packed routine.
On Monday this week, I've signed my contract with Ritz Carlton for my intern. :)
Well, pretty worried & afraid though. :/
I'll never know if there's gonna be scheming colleagues or demanding managers there.
Gotta cope with it though, I don't have a choice either.

Well, Tuesday was alright..
After school, I went to RTL to practice for service UT tomorrow.
It was bad. I've lost touch with the service side for so long :(
Broke glasses when I've attempted to carry a tray of drinks while trying to take my service gear up.
It was real bad. Feeling sooo demoralised after breaking the glass. So gonna screw up my UT. :(
Met B after the practice and felt better instantly :)
& Headed to his place for dinner. ♥

Tomorrow's my service UT & I'm crossing my fingers real tight.
I'm really hoping for at least a B. Needa study & practice real hard for this :(
Headed to RTL just now to practice once again.
But, I'm still unsure of so many things! Damn.
I'm seriously freaking out right here.
I'm hoping for the best, hoping for some leniency tomorrow from the examiners.
Comeon, wish me the best of luck. ♥