How long more must I wait.

Feeling meh.
He's going to be at Jln Bahar Camp, stay-in.
Just wished its different... perhaps Nee Soon or what..
Sigh, shall take what ever that comes then.

Our Secret Rendevous

I can't wait to get away from here.
Batam here I come! Kekeke!

Lowest point of our lives.

A promise to you and to me.

It'll just be us against the world and not you alone.

I love you too much to lose you and I'm ready to give up just anything and everything to assure you.

Baby, just remember that you're everything to me and you mean the world to me.

While you're inside camp, I'll try my very best to be strong for you.

I can't change what I am but I can learn and adapt.

 

 

The past few days for the past week gave me alot of fear and anxiety.

This fear and anxiety made me really lost and lonely.

I've seen too many drama and I couldn't accept these changes.

I've lost friends in the midst of this battle and I cannot lose anymore.

Who is there for me when you're not around.

There's too many things for me NOT to ignore and I don't know how.

I need to learn. I need to stop letting people affect me. I need to learn to be selfish.

I need to. I have to.

But I hate to.

1st Book In.

See you next friday hubby. 
I love you,
& I miss you.

4 days.

Friday was Cindy's 21st!
Went there with my FOC mates and damn I missed out so much in our group!
May Yi's with JJ now and Hui Shi's with Tedson now. Oh god lol.
I'm sorry I mia-ed for quite long dearests. Trust me, I still love you all alot. ♥

Cindy's birthday was at Pasir Ris and while travelling there, I really missed B.
Really wished he was there with me.
Now, I had to learn to be independent and it's tough.
However, it's getting better each day knowing B is happy in there.
Hearing his voice at the end of the dreadful day is amazing and it's the only thing I'm looking forward to each day.

Gambateh love. I'll be looking forward to your call tomorrow.
Hugs and Kisses (xoxo)
I love you so much honey.

P.S.
13 more days.

He's going to protect our nation,

Day 1, Enlistment.

The moment I gave you one last kiss and the moment I waved goodbye to you,
I almost cried the shit out of myself but I told myself not to and I'm proud to have controlled my tears really well! Hehe!

Now as I'm alone at home, I'm used to having you by side squabbling with me.
I'm used to watching television with you. Most importantly, I'm not used to being alone.
I'm so used to you. I desperately wished you were here right now.
Although I know 3 weeks gonna be really short and fast but , it is the longest duration we are going to be apart from each other as a couple.
It's a tough thing to get over with and smile like it's any normal day.
No words could express the emptiness I'm feeling right now in me.
Nevertheless, you want me to be strong and I shall.
Despite the tears that flowed tonight, I'll try my best to stand, stay and be strong.
I love you honey.

P.S.
16 more days love.

I've finally gotten it.

Yes. It's mine. Finally.
Despite having problems with the maps and slight glitches.
I'm still madly in love with my new found partner.
Pretty Iphone 5, I'm so going to slowly enjoy you ♥

"I've been drinking too much for sure"

Genting trip with the clique!
Had so much indescribable fun up there.
Celebrated my 20th Birthday with them and indeed it was I-N-C-R-E-D-I-B-L-E!
Thank you to all my dearest, Mjc, Hui Xian, Yong Shan, Yap & Love for taking the time off to celebrate it with me.
I love you guys! ♥
The best gift would indefinitely be having to know all of you. Mwuaahh! ♥

Our anniversary date ♥

An amazing double date with love, Yap & Mjc!
Had "Sushi Tei" for dinner and a nice movie to end the night.
Thank you love for these roses and the precious memories we've created these past 3 years!
I love you. ♥

"Even though it's my first time receiving roses, I'm extremely proud to show it to the whole world.
Reason being, that I'm receiving flowers from someone I truly love and someone who loves me back.
Not many get this chance and I'm savouring every precious moment I'm sharing with him and you bet, I'm not letting go of this one."

3 years ♥

I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me;
love is knowing all about someone and still wanting to be with them more than any other person,
love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of,
love is feeling comfortable and completely safe with someone.
That's love for me. What about you?

Side by side, year by year. ♥
Happy 3rd Anniversary love.
I love you.

Burned-out.

“Do not allow yourself to be blinded by fear and anger. Everything is only as it is.”
― Yuki Urushibara

16th April 2012 - 18th April 2012
Had another splendid getaway from Singapore to Bintan with family and love.
Really had a great trip with no worries, with no anger, no fears, no tears and no unhappiness;
just simply had a really relaxing trip with laughter, joy and peace.
I love Bintan, I love the company, I love how carefree I was/were at that time, that moment.

18th April 2012 - 25th April 2012

Things started to turn sour when we're back in Singapore...
It always feel like us against the world when we're back.
For every single thing we've done, nothing seems to be reciprocated.
It's disappointing for how bad things had turned, how sour relationships had become.
I just hope all these would reset and go back to where it was again.
It's so tiring trying to hold in all emotions. I'm overflowing with anger, hate and sadness.
It's depressing to know how bad things had turned and I just don't wish to face it anymore.
After realizing how inhumane humans could be, I just feel like running away from reality.
(Welcome to life, Arlene, Welcome)

I'm just a girl, a young growing adult.
Sometimes, I wonder.. if right now, at this moment, I couldn't handle the stress given.
What would stress do to me when I'm older?...

I'm not sure, I don't wish to think and I don't want to know for now...
I just hope/wish/pray I could enjoy every moment I have now; every second, every minute of my life without any disturbance.
I'm suffering fatigue from growing up...
I'm burned-out.

May 15 2012

 

Status: Graduate

It's scary how freakishly fast 3 years of Polytechnic life have passed.
O' levels seemed to be a yesterday thing and today (Thank god) I'm a Diploma holder.
I'm happy with my grades and at least I do qualify for a local university in which relieves a lot of my burden.
True enough, RP brought many memories and indeed many valuable lessons were taught to me.
It has shaped me to become a better woman, a woman with a sense reponsibilty and a certain level of maturity.
I'm grateful enough to my fellow facilitators and friends that have joined me along my 3 years journey.

May 15 2012 would be my graduation ceremony.
I'm estactic, excited and afraid.
Reasons being:

1. I can't wait to wear that black gown of mine
2. I can't wait to collect my Diploma cert
3. I'm afraid I'll breakdown to tears on that day

BUT.. I STILL CAN'T WAIT FOR GRADUATION CEREMONY TO ARRIVE! ♥
Thank god for making these possible.


Shall update soon.
Bye! ♥

Splendid short getaway ♥

*Taken on Wan Sendari Ferry towards Bintan.

Short 2 days trip to Bintan with B, Sis & Brother-in-law ♥
Amazing, relaxing and splendid days spent in Bintan.
We went for massages, had great food along with a nice swim in the sea before returning back to dreadful Singapore.
Despite having such a wonderful holiday there, it isn't really wonderful back in Singapore.
We had a 'welcome' news that really made our heart wrench at the slightest thought of it.
Well, what's over is over. No point pondering and hating on it.

Oh and another thing is.. I can't wait for the next Bintan trip! 
We are already in the process of saving and planning the next trip so.. yay! ♥

Shall update this space again. Bye! ▼

Stay young, wild and free ♠

Stay beautiful, stay wild.

Caught sight of a beautiful double rainbow some weeks earlier! ♥

School's coming to an end and I believe it will be a beautiful ending to another chapter of our lives.
I've met really great friends, friends that are willing to make you smile, friends that embarrass you every single day etc.
Everyday of my poly life is filled with colours and never once there's a day that I'm down.
I'm always smiling with you guys (Friends and Facilitators) and thank you for making my school life so great and awesome.
I love you all! ♥

 

2 years & 7 months ♥

 

Our anniversary is a time to look back at the good times and a time to look ahead to live our dreams together. ♥
Happy Monthsary love.

2 years & 6 months ♥

He tells me I'm beautiful without make up,
He comes to my house unexpectedly to surprise me,
He is the only person I feel completely safe besides my parents,
He could get anyone he wants but he chose me ♥

Yet again another month has passed with amazing moments, with tears and joy.
Happy Monthsary love.
I love you. ♥

It's the season of joy!

 

Approaching the month of December with caution.
It has been terrible for the past few 11 months and I cross my fingers that this 12th month would be great.
Christmas season is approaching, so is Hx's & B's birthday.
Oh god, need to seriously save up money for these 3 major events!
Not only that, I really do hope this December I can travel out of Singapore. (Like seriously travel..)
I need a getaway from this tropical island.

-I'm in need of a stress reliever.

For November....

School

Class has been awesome and interesting.
My classmates are really jokers and they made class so much more enjoyable.
Once, I was in a really bad emotional state and the moment I stepped into class, I felt so much better.
Thanks class, for making life so much easier for me ♥

Social Circle

For the month of November we...

• Celebrated YS 21st birthday at his place and went to USS the next day. (Awesome?)
• Went Grand Hollywood with the clique and had some drinks!
• Grand Hollywood with Thai Dog, Winnie, Khai, Jia Hao, Natasha & B!
• MJ session + JB with Thai Dog and B!

 

November was filled with joy and tears.
I hope December would be better.
So..let's embrace December with more laughter and love! ♥

Bye♥♥

2 years & 5 months ♥

 

"Love is not how we can love perfectly, but love is how we can accept the imperfect and make it perfect in our eyes"

I love you ♥
Happy Monthsary.

Summer Breeze

 

It has been long since I've blogged & I bet you that time passes so damn fast.
Just before you realised, 6 months passed you by.
Despite my much proscratinating about how sucky IIP was, it was still nice being able to experience IIP and also having to work at B's Mum's Moral Student Care.
Holidays went by so fast and now I'm in my second semester of my last year in Republic Polytechnic.
Holidays was truly amazing, it was fun, filled with happiness & definitely not lacking of love.

Talking about working during holidays, I really love working at the student care and it's so fulfilling teaching the students.
I've also went shopping several times with MJC and we indeed had so much fun together!
Best part was also being able to spend so much ample time with B!
A nice stay-over at Hard Rock Hotel & also the amazing day out at USS yesterday was so-so damn good! (Thanks to B's daddy!)
Overall satisfaction for my holidays: 200%! (I can't wait for the next holiday)

Today officially marks the first day of my 3rd year second semester.
It seems...boring. Not as what I've thought to be exciting and interesting.
But then again, coming back to school isn't really a bad idea.
At least I'm able to spend more time with B ♥

I can't wait for weekends, stay-over & fun. ♥
Shall update soon!
Bye! ♥♥

World-weary

 

Just like the above picture, for every second my alarm rings, how I wish I can just destroy the speaker of my phone.
Sadly, I love my phone too much to destroy it and I've to succumb to it's horrendous screams every single morning for work.
Then just as always, tossing around my warm comfy bed; thinking of ways to get a freaking medical certificate. (Every single working day)
I know I know, it's just gonna be 6 months & you guys would be thinking how the rest of my life gonna be next time.
Well, you've already said. It's next time & now, all I really wanna do is just head back to school and study. Nothing more, nothing less.
Working life is terrible and enough said from me. My heavy eye-bags is enough to show you everything.

& yes something good to look forward for this week would be..
My awesome off days. Can't wait for it to happen, just couldn't.
I'm excited I'm hyperventilating I'm... ugh whatever, I just can't wait for my off-days people! ♥

Shall update soon again. Soon.
Bye! ♥